The Better One is Not Me

                I don’t know how you are and i have no reason to know more about you. I got same school with you since i was in junior school. Now you got too, have nearest boarding house of me. I don’t think I will be falling into you because you’re younger than me ‘till i felt comfort in our first messages. I messaged you because your brother was mine at that time. I would like to know more about your brother through asked you this and that. And at time, i wonder about you because you and your brother have many differences. You are so funy and kind, enjoyable in anytime. I admited i fall into you at this moment. I share many things to you till i hurted myself because i might let your brother left me for another girl. It surfered me. I felt so alone. I asked you to go around, i hope it would heal my deepest hole. 

                And at the next day, day by day, anything uncloser to us. I admire you, adore you. I admire all about you. I think you are complete package in extraordinary package. Oh i let you think it’s too much. But that’s what i get on you. Till by day, i go with you, not only by a couple but also with our other friend. I feel my love came into deep deep deepest hole on you. I love the way you care on me. The way you stop all vehicles when we across in a crowded road, the way you talk over, the way you zipper my coat, the way you enlight my bag,  I love all way you look so sweet till  the way you mad to me. I cant help saying i love you till make me hurt. It hurts cause i cant declare it, never, i’ll never do it. Things i must do are i have to make a distance on you, decrease my feeling, you are not into me. You will be deserve getting better one. And i realize the better one is not me. But, I hope you and me have been written.