I’ve
been aware now that I need no a guy to accompany or care to me as long as I
have Dad like my Dad. He’s like my angel in a crowded place, keep me away from
bad guy, and make me comfortable everywhere I am. When I was childhood, I’ve
never known how big his love to me. I still remember the way he got me up in
the morning then helped me to wear uniform. Then he would accompany me to get
school. I’ve never been aware it, and it’s being my regret. After I was home, I
would do my homework because I was scared if he would be mad when I did not
instead scared if I could not make him proud. He would correct my homework in
the evening, and often got angry when I
couldn’t do what he explained. Then, I’d cry and said never do my homework
more. Closed the door quickly. So childist girl. Then my Dad tried to talk to
me softly. But I still be mad. Oh, what I have done to my Dad.
My
Dad will give me everything what I want eventhough he must work hard to make my
wish come true. But What I’ve done to him. Talking about how care he is,
reminds me when I was in other country and I did not active my phone so he
could not talk to me by phone. I was prefer to type on email instead bought new
card to call him. Then I mailed him everyday but one day I had no signal. He
was getting panic, I knew it after I opened my email next day. He mailed me,
“What happened there? Why don’t you reply me? Any wrong?” And My Dad not mailed
me once but many, I dont know how many times, I forget. Then I said I would
arrive to Jakarta at midnight. He got panic more. He called his relatives who
could give me a ride. Then he got it. My uncle could do it. My Dad called my
uncle more and more to make sure I was okay. Oh Dad, you need to refresh your
mind. I’m okay if I have you. I wanna say it gently.
